Another Total Fail

Here are the numbers for the last three weeks documenting my failure.  Anybody else probably would have lost at least 5 lbs with this intake and exercise but not me.  I've gained.  I started out at 123lbs the day after vacation on 06/12/13 and almost exactly 4 weeks later I am 122.8lbs.  I stuck to about 1k or less with no slip ups and there are only 4 days out of the last three weeks that I did not exercise.  All that and I have nothing to show for it.  Despite my best efforts I have made no progress whatsoever.  I sound defeated because I am.  Totally and utterly.

Thank you Din Mamma for the  TDEE/IIFYM calculator link.  It's actually pretty cool the way it breaks things down.  I did their Total Daily Energy Expenditure calculator in every way possible and the lowest calorie count I came up with that it recommends is 1,666 calories per day and then for "reckless" fat loss it's 1,333 calories per day.  The thing is that I am pretty sure I'd gain about 50 lbs if I ate that much.  I feel like those calculators may be accurate for other people but not for me.  Maybe it's because my metabolism is destroyed.  I'm scared to find out what would happen if I ate that much because I may not be capable of losing weight but I know for sure that my body is ready and willing to gain it overnight.  Literally.

I'm basically screwed and I'm just really trying not to let it get me down too much.  Thank you all for your kind and thoughtful words of encouragement.

Weekly Summary for Week of Mon, Jun 17th

Daily Summary
	Budget	Food	Exercise	Net	+/-	Weight (lbs)
6/17/13	990	897	190	707	-283	120
6/18/13	996	998	140	858	-138	120.8
6/19/13	1,005	812	180	632	-372	122.2
6/20/13	1,005	1,019	0	1,019	14	122.2
6/21/13	996	1,047	180	867	-128	120.8
6/22/13	1,002	1,041	180	861	-141	121.8
6/23/13	998	852	180	672	-326	121.2
1,375 calories under budget for the week
Gained 1.2 pounds this week as measured from a starting weight of 120 on June 16th.

Nutrient Summary		% Calories
Fat	251g	34.9%
Saturated Fat	92g
Cholesterol	644mg
Sodium	10,065mg
Carbohydrates	668g	41.3%
Fiber	168g
Sugars	165g
Protein	385g	23.8%

Exercise Summary		Calories
30 Day Shred 190	30 Min	190
30 Day Shred 180	2 Hours	720
30 Day Shred 140	30 Min	140
Total	1050

Weekly Summary for Week of Mon, Jun 24th

Daily Summary
	Budget	Food	Exercise	Net	+/-	Weight (lbs)
6/24/13	1,004	777	160	617	-387	122
6/25/13	1,006	491	0	491	-515	122.4
6/26/13	1,000	879	0	879	-120	121.4
6/27/13	998	1,062	190	872	-126	121.2
6/28/13	992	861	220	641	-351	120.2
6/29/13	987	900	180	720	-266	119.4
6/30/13	998	1,088	160	928	-71	121.2
1,836 calories under budget for the week
No change in weight this week as measured from a starting weight of 121.2 on June 23rd.

Nutrient Summary		% Calories
Fat	199g	30.2%
Saturated Fat	83g
Cholesterol	724mg
Sodium	9,745mg
Carbohydrates	709g	47.9%
Fiber	153g
Sugars	283g
Protein	323g	21.9%

Exercise Summary		Calories
30 Day Shred 190	30 Min	190
30 Day Shred 180	30 Min	180
30 Day Shred 160	1 Hour	320
30 Day Shred 220	30 Min	220
Total	910

Weekly Summary for Week of Mon, Jul 1st

Daily Summary
	Budget	Food	Exercise	Net	+/-	Weight (lbs)
7/1/13	1,004	821	210	611	-392	122
7/2/13	1,002	837	210	627	-375	121.8
7/3/13	997	1,095	190	905	-92	121
7/4/13	998	1,292	190	1,102	104	121.2
7/5/13	1,004	1,523	0	1,523	520	122
7/6/13	1,005	1,095	220	875	-130	122.2
7/7/13	1,013	1,115	210	905	-108	123.4
473 calories under budget for the week
Gained 2.2 pounds this week as measured from a starting weight of 121.2 on June 30th.

Nutrient Summary		% Calories
Fat	286g	34%
Saturated Fat	120g
Cholesterol	877mg
Sodium	10,617mg
Carbohydrates	862g	45.6%
Fiber	165g
Sugars	214g
Protein	387g	20.5%

Exercise Summary		Calories
30 Day Shred 190	1 Hour	380
30 Day Shred 210	1 Hour 30 Min	630
30 Day Shred 220	30 Min	220
Total	1230