Vacationing While Fat

It really sucks that I'm heavier and heavier with each vacation that we go on.  I hate going on vacation and already feeling too heavy.  It's the worst.  I should probably be used to it by now but I'm not.  I'm just going to try not to think about it.  I've done really good food wise for the last two weeks.  There's really nothing else I can do.  I dread what number I'll see when I get back.  I dread how fat I'm going to look in my bikini.  Uggh!!!  Oh well.  At least I'm on vacation.  I will enjoy it and deal with the rest when I get back.