I love my husband more then anything but I must say that I am really enjoying this freedom to eat what I want and when I want with no pressure, no influence, no temptations, no explanations, no nothing. I don't feel bad about not cooking. I can weigh my foods freely. I don't worry if he's going to want to have something unhealthy, I don't worry about having to eat something I'd rather not and it feels great!!! It's just whatever whenever and there is no must have dinner looming ahead of me during the work day. I do miss hubby but because I've been so busy every day since he left I haven't had a chance to really notice. I spent Saturday night at the rents and my mom and I went to the gym together on Sunday so I didn't get home until late afternoon then I've been working out every day after work. I am finding that I don't mind getting home late as much. Part of why I want to get home so bad is because hubby is there but with him gone it feels like there really isn't anything to come home to.
I was super good last Wednesday when we went out to eat before his game. I got fillet Mignon kabob which was sooo delicious and a baguette. No alcohol. I actually dropped some weight the next day. I lost whatever progress I made on Saturday though. I dropped hubby off at the airport and then went to the rents house and then we went to my sisters house for my nephews B-day. It was a potentially very healthy day for me. We made sandwiches and there were two sides that I didn't get too much of but I went to town on the chips. It's so terrible!! Anyhow. I'm back on the wagon. My Sunday, Monday and Tuesday work outs burned 400-600 calories each day and I was at 115.4 today but I can already tell I'm retaining water from sodium. My calories were 1015 yesterday-no junk but the sodium was high; probably because of some cheese and lunch meat. I drank coffee and hardly had to pee. I just drank 12 oz of water and haven't had to pee yet. Uggg! I hate this. When I'm not retaining it goes right through me and that's how I like it. The number will go up tomorrow but I have to try really hard to realize it's just water retention and not let it get me down or say "screw it" and allow myself to eat more then I should. I still have not purchased pretzels. It's been about 3 weeks since I had any and I'm trying to stay away. I'll have to look out for no salt pretzels and give those a whirl.
I won't get home until 7pm or so after my hair appointment. I'll probably have another sandwich. My mom gave me some of her 3 bean salad from Saturday which is fairly low cal. It's just 3 kinds of beans and light Italian dressing but it turns out the sodium is atrocious. I love beans and they are good for you but she used canned kidney, string and garbanzo beans so the sodium is through the roof. I don't think I want to eat it because it'll only make my water retention worse.
Work is busy again. I'm on my lunch break now but I've had barely a moment to breathe since Monday hit. As expected. Which is why I try not to feel too bad during the summer months that I'm chillin'. I more then make up for it during the rest of the time.
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