116.0 [Day 30] 600 Cal Burn & Fiber 1 Rocks!!

Yesterday~~~
Intake:  835
Exercise:  633
Net: 202

Yesterday was a sweat day at the gym.  600 cals on the elliptical in an hour.  I did the fat burn setting for 30 minutes then manual for 30.  I felt so good afterwards.  I skipped the stretching machine and was able to go right into my streches and splits and then I did crunches.  I didn't get home until around 7pm but that's the way it goes.  I'm accepting that.  Super hard at first, but doing so was really half the battle for me.  I didn't get a machine with a TV so I had to listen to my stale old i pod music.  I like my songs but for working out....not so much.  I downloaded a work out CD + a few extra in iTunes to help get me through tonight's work out.  A lot of my favorite songs come in a techno mix.  I want to get some more rigorous yoga & pilates exercise videos to do at home.  The ones I have make me feel like I'm not accomplishing anything.  Actually, there is one that is a tad strenuous but I could fall asleep doing all the others. I also want some hard core stretching DVD's too.  I'm broke so I don't know when I'll get around to either. 

Getting home that late means that dinner is whatever.  It's too late to care too much about what I eat nor do I want to overdo it.  It also means that I don't feel as bad about hubby not really having anything for dinner.  It's not like I had time to get home and cook right?  He is the better cook, he gets home at 4pm and he actually likes cooking but for some reason I still feel badly if I haven't fed him.  He's been eating the Chili for lunch so that STILL leaves dinner.  Jeez...cooking and having lunch and dinner provisions is a pain.  The food just doesn't go very far.  At least I doubled the Chili recipe so it will last longer.  I let hubby eat most all left overs. I would rather him have the food to eat 'cause I could care less.

I went #2 last night.  AGAIN.  Woot, woot.  I feel like I am "regular" for the first time in years.  YEARS!  I was rewarded on the scale this morning with 116 [115.4! on the extra scale].  1.5 lbs down!  I say that I want the numbers to go down and that it's been happening too slowly but when it happens too fast I get scared because I fear that it's a fluke and will all go away.  I am on my period this week and for some reason I usually drop a little (although not for a while because my body sucked and would not do anything I wanted).  I'm hoping it's  not just that.  And even if I do go up a little I will still be OK as long as it's under 117.5 so at least there would be progress from where I'd been maintaining for a while.  In reality this hasn't been fast at all!  This is Day 30 from when I renewed my efforts to lose some weight after reaching the dreaded 120 mark last month.  So, not fast at all.

Last week at work I got this project and got all freaked out because I didn't think I was going to be able to do it.  I always do that.  I worry that I will fail or that I won't understand and then everyone will think I'm an idiot.  Well, I e mailed it to my boss and she said I was right on track.  I need to finish it today because I have some other stuff I need to get working on ASAP or else I will be crunched for time.  There are still a lot of things going on around me that are over my head being that this position and department is new to me but I try not to freak over it.  The last two times I started a new position I was a WRECK.  It's taken 2 job changes for me to feel more confidence that I will be OK and I will figure it out.  I guess that what happens when you stay at your first job out of college for 7 years!!

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Seeking Something Else-No, we don't have insurance.  We bought the phones at Apple and have a plan in case it doesn't work properly but nothing for if it gets lost or stolen.  I will DIE if I lose my phone 'cause I won't be paying $500 for another.  That's all there is too it.  I think that is part of why I didn't want to have such a nice one for so long.  The risk in losing it is too much.  Verizon should be coming out with their I phone pretty soon.  I saw it on the news yesterday.