I Suck!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously have a problem. Aside from being fat that is. I have lost all of my willpower. It's gone and I can't seem to get it back. I am just so frustrated with myself yet I do nothing to change my behavior. If there were no freakin' food events I would probably do just fine. But I can't blame those food events. I can only blame myself. There is no reason to for me to be running around pigging out as if I have never seen food before.

We did have pizza yesterday. Apparently hubby lost any weight he gained and was all good. But what about me? I never loose it overnight. It always takes days and days of diligence to fix my indulgences. I really hate my body. I had 3 pieces of pan pizza and a beer. I couldn't help myself. That was all I ate for the day aside from a few snacks like grapes and some FF pringles. But that's all it takes. And hubby told me to take out meat. So who knows what's going to be for dinner.

I need to stop talking about what I want to do and just do it already. God I suck!