Doing Good But Blew It

Friday night I went to bed at 116.5 and woke up at 116.5. I did good that day and was happy with being in the 116's. But.....back up to 117 today when yesterday I had dropped as low as 116 during a mid morning weigh in. Saturday morning I had a toasted bagel. Mom came down and we went to lunch. I ate half my sandwich and the fries. I stopped when I started to feel myself getting full. Later on we ate my carefully planned out low fat dessert. Reduced fat pound cake and reduced fat ice cream.

I also had my wedding dress alterations done. It's a size 4 and I had it taken in on the sides so it would have a nice snug fit. It was a little loose in the area between my waist and my hips but bringing it in will show off my figure.

I am so mad about my weight right now. I was into the 116's and I blew it. Today I have already eaten a bagel. For dinner I have bean burritos planned for hubby and I. This won't be too bad as I will only have one and the ingredients are all pretty good. Beans, reduced fat tortilla, some cheese, and green onions. I will have a beer and go easy on the tortilla chips.

Why is this so hard right now? I don't know but my determination has not faltered whatsoever. I know I can do this. I am that mad.

Oh, and hubby and I did have our little romp on Friday night initiated by yours truly. I came home, had a stiff drink, kind of got a second wind and went for it. Fun was had by all.