Yesterday I feel like I took a step back. I had coffee and 4 nutter butters which I love although I should have gotten Snackwells when hubby and I stopped for food. He got some Chinese but I was saving up because I knew that we were going to his dad's for a bar B Q. At the Barbecue I had a cheeseburger, 1 rib, a scoop of potato salad and a scoop of beans. I also had about 3 shots of Crown Royal which was better then having a filling beer. I usually don't feel too bad about hard alcohol. I could have done better but it wasn't too bad of a day. I went to the bathroom like 3 X not too long after which was good. Then, hubby wanted to stop at Dunkin Donuts and I wish I could say that I didn't get one but I did. For no reason. It's not like I was hungry or anything. I just wanted it for the hell of it.
Today I did horrible!! Started out OK with my breakfast choice. I did the mini breakfast which was an egg beater, 1 piece of bacon, 1 piece of toast, and a coffee. I wanted french toast or pancakes but I didn't get it. Then, his aunt wanted to go to Olive Garden so I did the soup and salad thing. We had an appetizer of oily delicious melted mozzarella cheese and bread. Then, salad, 2 bowls of soup and 3 bread sticks later I finally stopped eating. Three bread sticks!! Why oh why did I do it? I don't know what it is. The food is so darn good and it's like in that moment I just don't care about resisting so hard and I hate it that I am being so weak. I was doing so well before and now I am just an out of control pig.
I still don't know who much I weigh. I haven't gone #2 since we've been here but hopefully am going to go tonight. I hate being so freaking weak. I am almost just figuring that this is how it's going to be until after New Years Eve. I am making some good choices and some bad choices. A step forward then 2 steps back, but I guess that is just how it's going to be right now. I wish I knew how much I weigh. Well, maybe I don't!!!
The trip is going well though. Everyone is nice and I think they like me. The driving around and visiting can be a bit tiresome but it's really great to meet his family. I meet his mom tomorrow. It is pretty cold but not as horrible as I thought it would be. It's been clear and sunny at least. We are staying at the Dover Air Force Base and it's only about $30 bucks per night which is great. They even have free Wi Fi which is awesome.
I really, really hope I haven't done too much damage!! I won't know until we get back home New Years Eve.
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