My Sister Is Pregnant

My big sister is two days pregnant. She knows this because she is so obsessive that she's been taking about 5 pregancy tests every time she's even a single day late for the better part of the year. I am happy for her because she has wanted this for a long time. Her and her husband have been trying since March and she miscarried twice last year. My mom wants a grand child and my sister wants to quit working. So, this is good for her. The only reason I am nervous for her is that I cannot stand her husband. It really shouldn't matter because I'm not the one married to him but still. I hate to see my sister with a weirdo knowing all the while that she could and does deserves so much better. She loves him though and any issue that I have with him is my problem. I have slowly gained acceptance of their relationship [again, not that it matters what I think] but I don't think I will ever like him.

I don't anticipate him being the type of father to be actively involved in the day to day care of his child. My sister already does everything around the house while he lays around all day playing play station and watching TV on his off days. So, I doubt he will be all that interested in changing diapers and "babysitting" as he refers to it as. I still can't figure out how you can baby sit your own child, but whatever. Apparently he can cook. You would never know it because he basically refuses to. Ever. He just won't do it. My sister says that when they are home together he's there but it's like he isn't really because he plays video games and is on the computer non stop and they don't have much interaction.

My sister is happy go lucky and easy going. He is morose and difficult. My sister is affectionate whereas he is kind of distant. When they were dating my sister had no idea from one week to the next if he would even call her or not. In fact, he left the state for work and their relationship up in the air to the point where if my sister hadn't been so aggressive about not giving up I don't think they would even be together today. She uprooted her entire life and moved cross country and he wasn't even ready to marry her yet. He is (well at least he was) obsessed with having a threesome that they used to argue about it. This issue upset my sister so much that she even told my mom. Of their anniversary trip to the Poconos earlier this year he writes that he didn't really have fun but he didn't go there to have fun he went there to be with Dee. Well, I don't know about him but I have fun when I'm with my sister. My sister basically married my ex husband. Lazy and anti social. The only difference is that brother in law is financially responsible and my ex husband wasn't a weirdo like him. Some of the things he says just make no sense. We don't talk, but in e mail conversations I usually feel as though I am corresponding with someone from a different planet. His brain is wired some kind of way that makes most things he thinks and says totally skewed. He is just off. I have long ago quit trying to go back and forth with him on anything of substance. There is no point. I don't understand how my sister can be in love with someone like him but alas she is and like it or not I have to respect that. And, I do. She doesn't know how much I dislike him and she's not going to.

My poor sister was living at home and lonely. I just think she was desperate to get out of my parents house and feel like she had a life of her own. Sadly, I think it could have been anyone. He just so happened to be the one to come along. He supports her financially and does the obligatory gifts for holidays and birthdays. I don't think he'd ever cheat although I do find his fascination with sex and women is quite odd.

I don't think it's a bad relationship but I guess I just want her to have what I have and based upon what I've seen I don't think she does. I mean, not everyone finds their soul mate. She admits that he isn't but she says she doesn't believe in soul mates because relationships are just super hard work and difficult. Well mine isn't. My previous relationship was hard but that was because I was with the wrong person and frankly I think she is too. But at least she has someone decent. A lot of people settle for decent. I am an outsider looking in so I only have my observations. I just think she is so wonderful that I would have loved to see her with someone who would treasure her and treat her like the queen that she is. I will be an aunt soon which is pretty cool. Dee will be fat at my wedding so I am not sure what to do about what kind of dress to put her in.

I am here at work starving. I have had pbj, coffee, snickerdoodle cupcake, Cheese It's, and Yoplait. I am just hungry, bored, tired and I can't wait to get out of this place and start my Christmas break.