Gained A Little But It's OK

Well, I am proud of myself for doing good last night with dinner. He (with me helping where I can as the assistant) made cheesy grilled chicken breast with penne pasta. I made the garlic bread. He fixed my plate AGAIN and piled it on. I was like...."uh that's a lot of food" but he said "no it's not." Luckily there was a moment when he went into the living room without my plate before we ate and I was able to scrape some of it off and spread out what was left so he wouldn't notice. I put my garlic bread on top of it too. I felt really bad and deceitful doing that but it was a lot of food and rather then make a "thing" out of insisting I put some back or not being able to finish it all I just did it on the down low. So, I had that small portion of chicken & pasta and two small pieces of garlic bread. I had water with it so I wouldn't feel overloaded with liquids. The man can cook. It was quite delicious.

I used to have a hard time with portions at home and at restaurants but I am doing so much better. I used to eat my entire restaurant entree for the most part no matter what it was and at home I'd go back for seconds or have to have that heaping portion. That is why before I was so all or nothing when it came to food. I didn't have the will power to just have a little so I went with nothing because I knew I couldn't control myself. It has taken a while though to get to this point. I think it will be a good thing that I can do that now because my food issues will pretty much be disguised for the most part and ideally it won't ever become an issue in my relationship. It's funny, because there are times when I feel like I want attention from my food issues or for the weight loss to become very noticeable but overwhelmingly I know I do not. If hubby noticed too much then it WILL become a problem and I don't want that. This way, I can restrict and do what I want.

So, this morning I did go up .5 to 114 but I am OK with that. Those damn cookies are gone at work thank goodness so just pbj and coffee for breakfast. I don't know what got into me eating one every day. I had turned into a cookie monster and I couldn't stop!!

A little stressed because the window was leaking yesterday from all the rain. I don't know how much that's going to cost to either re seal the window or replace it. I know it will have to be taken care of before I get a renter in there. The lights in the kitchen won't come on either even though the bulbs were replaced so that could be an electrical issue. I don't have money for crap like that!!