I do have issues. Some days I am fine so it makes me think I am ok then the next day I cry myself to sleep. I had my life set up in a way that was manageable for me. My mortgage and all of my bills have been carefully managed to fit into my income. I do what I can afford and get what I can only if and when I can afford it. Now that hubby is in the picture things are changing. He wants to do things and have things that I had already accepted I never would. These things don't fit into my neat little budget and that is very scary for me. I am used to only depending on myself and providing for myself. I don't ask for help because needing help makes me feel like a failure. Hubby is the best thing that ever happened to me. I still am in shock that I somehow managed to snag this amazing guy. If I loose him I already know there is no hope for happiness for me. So, I need to get myself under control so that doesn't happen.
I have been happier then I've ever been in my life since I met hubby. My down days had all but disappeared until recently (as it gets closer to him coming home) because these changes are actually about to happen. These changes that I can't afford and therefore can't plan for.
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