Fat Be Gone

So, I broke through the fat mode. I fought the urge to totally starve but of course I didn't eat much too much I think it was water retention because I noticed that I wasn't having to go to the bathroom very often and my urine was not too clear.

At our last department meeting (the first Tuesday of the month) my boss said I was looking "model thin." It's funny because they know nothing about my whole modeling thing. Well, one person does just cause I mentioned the whole photo shoot/casting when I took that long weekend. When I was home the weekend before I went my dad mentioned that I looked like I had lost weight. I just played dumb. I mentioned to hubby that I had lost some pounds but laughed it off that I'd probably have gained it back by the time he gets back. I probably will too. Not that I want to but....

I don't know what I am doing. I don't know how long I will ultimately be able to maintain this weight or if I will be able to go any lower. I am sooooo tired all the time right now. I have been having sleeping problems so it might be that. I just feel so chronically fatigued. I am taking my vitamins daily and trying to get my yogurt and string cheese in every day for the calcium. I am eating though not as much as most would consider "normal." I don't feel too hungry. Around lunch time when I start smelling everyone's food it kind of hits me but then I have my snack before my lunch break and then another after and that usually holds me over until I get home.

I am addicted to the internet!! My wrists are hurting again which started right after I got my mac and started spending all my time on it. I am alone. What else am I going to do? I'm gonna have to cut back though.

EATS****
PBJ
Coffee
RF Cheese its
Yogurt
EZ Mac
String Cheese
Lt Ice Cream
Apple