So the party went well. That one friend that I was sort of nervous to invite because I haven't seen her in a year and hadn't heard from said yes and came. She said it was so thoughtful for me to think of her meanwhile I'm wondering if she even wants to be my friend anymore. It was so nice to catch up with her and everyone else. In all I was able to drum up three friends plus one friend brought her sister. My mom and sister were there too so it was cool. Then my mom, sister and nephew spent the night. We had such a good time. It was so cool just hanging out with them. I had some left overs which kind of sucked because I hate having to feel like I need to eat left overs but I hate wasting food even more. I sent my mom home with some stuff, froze some stuff and ate the rest over the course of a week. I ended up having to shell out $480 bucks on breaks for my car which really sucked; especially right before the trip. I redeemed $100 of cash back bonus on my card as a credit and used the $75 gift card that I'd with points a while ago to offset it so that helped.
Lately I've been feeling huge. When I look in the mirror I'm disgusted but for some odd reason last week at my boot class camp I looked in the mirror and saw thin. I'm not sure why considering I was there just 2 weeks before feeling huge but this time I could see that my knees stuck out slightly more then my thighs. My arms looked thin and my legs looked lean and long. Then, when I was at the store over the weekend trying on jackets in a three way mirror I also had another thin moment. I had on a white top with a scoop neck and I could see my collar bones poking out and the light reflecting off of my chest bone. Why is it that on some days in some mirrors I look thin and on other days I feel huge?
I've mostly been in the 116's for the last week or so which is way better then my average from this time last month. I was 117 this morning and I think part of it is water retention. I'm really beginning to wonder whats the point of losing weight just so I can gain it all back on vacation. I'm definitely restricting and watching the eats though anyways because that's typically how I roll unless there are social outings that screw me up. Which there haven't been. This last weekend has been spent getting ready for my trip. I got the mani/pedi done. I did some errands and picked up a few things I needed from the store. I did some light cleaning, laundry and got the trash out. I made a list and I'm mostly packed aside from some things that need to be washed and toiletries that I use. I'm feeling pretty calm about it which is good as normally I am super anxious about packing and leaving for a trip. Hopefully, the calm will hold up. I found a cute black light wind breaker at Burlington for only $30 bucks which is great and makes me feel so much better about being prepared for any weather. The hood zips on and off, it's water proof, light and easily packable but still has some lining. I've been watching the weather and from the looks of things we will likely get rain in Paris and Amsterdam. The other cities are looking kinda iffy too; even Barcelona. At least I'll be prepared and warm. I've got all my boarding passes and train tickets printed out. I've finished up with all my research on getting around and what to do in all eight cities and have it all typed up and ready to go. I'm ahead of the game at work too having completed most of the tasks I needed to do. This week will fly by for me between work and the gym. I'm getting my hair done Wednesday night and Thursday bright and early I'll be off. I'm so excited for the trip and to see hubby. It's been 6 weeks. I get butterflies thinking about it.
I got hardly any writing done on my book this month. Maybe 5 pages. It just wasn't happening. I couldn't focus. I do best when I get to write at work (sad I know) but things have been too busy for that. October might be a wash too but I'm not going to beat myself up about it as long as I keep going. Which I will.
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