X Mas Thin Day 8

So the 114.5 did stick which is surprising to me because when I got home I was 115; even after my work out.  So, disappointing.  I figured I was doomed to eat, go to bed at 115.5 and wake up at 115 but my body actually cooperated with me.   I kept my calories in the 800's yesterday and should have no problem doing the same today.  I won't get home until after 9:30pm and by that time I'm so tired I just go to bed.  I have snuck in some sweet things here and there but nothing major and overall I'm still on track.  I'll be ok with drinking a bunch of water today because I won't be eating dinner.  I've got to force myself to drink some before I leave work.  I had a ton of Fiber yesterday (double fiber toast, fiber 1 cereal, fiber one bar) and I could literally feel the moment when my body wanted to have a BM but there probably wasn't enough water to push that Fiber along.  Right when I got to the gym my stomach started bloating up.  I sort of felt like I had to go but nothing happened.  It made for a really difficult work out but I stuck it out for the full 45 minutes on the Elliptical.

It's slow going but that's how it was the first time too so I shouldn't be surprised.  It's almost exactly one year ago that I started my weight loss efforts that took me from 120 down to 112.  It took me two long months.  This time it's 116.5 to 112.  I was hoping to get there by Saturday because it's the Holiday party.  I'd rather  be at a lower weight in case I screw up but the bottom line is that I have so little margin for error right now that I simply CANNOT screw up no matter what weight I'm at.  As long as I'm 112 by the end of the year I'll be OK with that.  My clothes still fit the same.  My boobs do feel bigger but that may or may not be all in my head.

Maintenance can be really hard but losing sucks way more.  Hopefully I've learned my lesson and will do better once I get to my goal weight again.  It's taken me 9 months to screw up again so when I think about it I actually haven't been that bad.  I didn't get here overnight so I can't expect to lose it overnight either.  Although it would be really freakin' nice.  I went to my friend's little grad ceremony.  I was wearing my pea coat so I'm sure I had to look a bit bulky and a co worker out of the blue says how do you stay so thin?  I just said I go to the gym.

I'm sooooo freaking tired.  I don't know how I'm going to get through the rest of this work day let alone class tonight.  Thank god this is my last one and it'll be 100% online for my last two classes next semester.  I cannot bear to go to class anymore.  After that I'm done.