Eats. Work Out. No BM

So, this is my food intake for three days.  Sunday when I felt like I ate too much for no good reason at all and yesterday and today when I did much better.   It doesn't take a nutrition class to tell my diet kinda sucks.  I'm a die hard calorie counter.  That's all I see so I have tunnel vision when it comes to everything else.  I clearly need more fruits and veggies and a whole lot of other things.  If I swapped out those cookies for fruit even that would be a help but I am a calorie counter AND I have sweet tooth.  So, the nutritious stuff I should be eating often goes by the wayside.  My fat is usually an acceptable percentage but my carbs are high and my proteins are too low.

I went to the gym this morning at 5:30am!  I'm so proud of myself.  I didn't even set an alarm.  I just kinda told myself if I get up I will go and I did.  I'm not planning to go back to the gym until Saturday-maybe.  I got my two days in.  I got those cookies in too.   Why must I eat a cookie for breakfast?  There are only two left in the house thank goodness!  It was nice to be able to come home right after work and I just felt a little bit more tired then usual.  Oh, and still no BM.  It's been 7 days since I had one and counting.  The Fiber 1 was working wonders for a while and the only thing that has ever helped to regulate me so I don't know why this is happening.  I won't take a super cleanse until I go naturally on my own.

I think one solution to my hatred of 114 lbs could be to lower my goal weight range to 110-114 lbs but I really don't think I wanna go there.  112 lbs is thin on my body as it is and if I'm having a hard time sitting at 112 then 110 would be even worse.  I don't think I need any more stress. I'm just going to have to try to be more comfortable with the normal fluctuations and less fearful about losing control.  Originally my goal weight was 114lbs but it just didn't sit well with me.  I lowered it to 112 lbs.  Maintenance is tricky.  Hubby made breakfast for dinner tonight.  I had a delicious breakfast sandwich.  He is so good about cooking.  I pretty much am not.  I try.  Sometimes.  It sort of comes in spurts where I put forth an effort and times where I just can't be bothered.  I feel bad even though I know realistically I shouldn't.  Cooking is not my strength.  Just as cleaning and organization is not his.  Tomorrow he'll be going out to dinner so I won't feel guilty about not "providing" and I'll be on my own to eat as little as possible.  No food events until Saturday night when we will be going out to dinner with friends.

Daily Report for October 18, 2011, Tuesday

Daily Log
Breakfast		202
Coffee, brewed w/tap water	8 Fluid ounces	2
Bread, Double Fiber (38g), Oroweat	1 Each	70
Creamer, Irish Creme, Liquid, Nestle Coffee-Mate	1 Tablespoon	35
Peanut Butter, RF, Jif	1 Tablespoon	95
Lunch		200
Cereal, Original, Fiber One	½ Cup	60
Candy, Licorice, Original Red tray, Red Vines	4 Each	140
Dinner		290
Egg Beater Sandwich on Thins w/Bacon & Cheese	1 Serving	290
Snacks		100
Pecan Twirl (30g), Little Debbie	1 Each	100
Exercise		526
Elliptical 45/405	45 min	405
Running	15 min	121

Daily Report for October 17, 2011, Monday

Daily Log
Breakfast		258
Coffee, brewed w/tap water	8 Fluid ounces	2
Bread, Double Fiber (38g), Oroweat	1 Each	70
Creamer, Irish Creme, Liquid, Nestle Coffee-Mate	1 Tablespoon	35
Jelly, Reduced Sugar, Welch's	1 Tablespoon	20
Cookies, Chocolate Chip, Toll House	1 Serving	130
Lunch		200
Cereal, Original, Fiber One	½ Cup	60
Candy, Licorice, Original Red tray, Red Vines	4 Each	140
Dinner		216
Yogurt, Frozen, Non Fat (S=8oz), Golden Spoon	4 Ounces	100
Yogurt, Frozen, LF (S=8oz), Golden Spoon	4 Ounces	116
Snacks		210
Cookies, Chocolate Chip, Toll House	1 Serving	130
Cheese, String (28oz), Frigo	1 Each	80
Exercise		530
Elliptical 530	60 min	530

Nutrients
Fat	26g	24%
Saturated Fat	12g
Cholesterol	57mg
Sodium	892mg
Carbohydrates	164g	67%
Fiber	22g
Sugars	83g
Protein	22g	9%

Summary
Food Calories	884
Exercise Calories	530
Net Calories	354
+/- Calories	-711
Weight	114

Daily Report for October 16, 2011, Sunday

Daily Log
Breakfast		500
Syrup, SF, Mrs. Butterworth's	¼ Cup	20
Pancakes, Buttermilk Complete (1/3c=4x4"=46g), Aunt Jemima	3 Each	480
Lunch		190
Cereal, Original, Fiber One	½ Cup	60
Cookies, Chocolate Chip, Toll House	1 Serving	130
Dinner		335
French Fries, Oven Baked, homemade	1 Serving	312
Ketchup, Hunt's	1 ½ Tablespoons	22
Snacks		210
Cheese, String (28oz), Frigo	1 Each	80
Cookies, Chocolate Chip, Toll House	1 Serving	130

Nutrients
Fat	32g	22%
Saturated Fat	15g
Cholesterol	87mg
Sodium	2625mg
Carbohydrates	227g	68%
Fiber	24g
Sugars	58g
Protein	33g	10%

Summary
Food Calories	1,236
Exercise Calories	-
Net Calories	1,236
+/- Calories	170
Weight	114