My Body Is Fighting Me

Yesterday's Eats: [920 cals]

• Breakfast:  PBJ (310), Coffee (50)
• Lunch:  Bagel (300)
• Snack:  Fruit (60)
• Dinner:  Cabbage, Rice, Turkey Sausage (200)

So, the cal's on my PBJ went up because of the stupid bread I am using.  My usual bread only has 50 cals per slice but this bread is 85 each!!!  That sucks!!  I have some of the usual bread in the freezer I just have to take it out and didn't want this bread to go to waste. I cooked dinner last night and had a serving not even big enough to make me feel even close to full.  It was so small.  It just barely made a dent in my hunger. My body is fighting me. I am barely maintaining on less then 1k right now.  I expected much better on the scale this morning.  There is a happy hour coming up on Friday at my favorite place.  The one where I like to indulge in cheese.  I already know what's going to happen if I indulge the question is if I have the willpower not to.  As of late the answer to that is a big FAT NO!

Tired again.  Still not sleeping so well and it sure makes work days long. Thank goodness my job is so easy that I can blog for the first 2 hours and then off and on throughout the day without anyone noticing.  I got my raise in my last paycheck.  It's not much.  Just my yearly step increase.  I think it was around 5% or so.  At this rate I'm obviously not going to be making any money for a long time but it's better then nothing.  I am NOT blowing my entire budget for the month this time around.  Granted, it was stuff for the house and stuff I needed to get but still.  I've been broke for the last two months and let's just say it's getting really old.  I'd rather not buy a thing then spend all my money and be broke for the last 3 weeks of the month. 

I'm getting a little nervous because I still have not received a check from my property management company for July rent.  They say they pay out on the 25th of the month for that month's rent....but nothing.  The mortgage on the condo is due by the 15th and I can call it in so there is still time but why is it taking so long?  The tenant had some issues with dishwasher and shower doors.  I wonder if the repairs ate up all the rent check I had coming to me.  Sigh.  I try to read the owner statements on line but it's gibberish.  It makes absolutely no sense to me.  Ha!  Maybe my budget for the month will have to go for that and I will be broke this month anyways.

Still no sex in the champagne room.  He got home from work late.  After cooking and chilling for a bit it was straight to bed.  We were both so tired.  Imagine if we had kids?  How awful would that be.  We would REALLY never get any rest.  And sex would be twice a year!